Ye Olde Journal

Oh, and another thing...

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Tue, 02 Dec 2008 07:10:03 GMT

You'll have to excuse all the nihilism today. It's all from a good place, I'm sure.

I purchased sixty dollars worth of clothing today. From Target. Since leaving the store I've experienced mild nausea and a bit of a headache.

In all seriousness, shopping feels like public masturbation to me.

Hm. I wonder if posting this before my last entry would have been more or slightly less hypocritical of me. You be the judge.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sat, 11 Oct 2008 00:24:05 GMT

I have not seen my roommate at all this week, he doesn't respond to my texts, and I'm pretty sure he knows what we need to talk about. I'm not mad at him and I don't assume he's purposely ignoring me (though I don't know for sure), but I want him to come home and help his apartment-mates make a decision. It would be considerate.

Excuse all the pronouns. I'm talking about Kevin Colorado.

In other confessional rantings...

...the former fourth member of our apartment family (yes, we are a family) left at the end of last month. He gave us practically no notice before he left. I mean, literally, he wrote a cryptic note on the whiteboard and split.

My mom, the person who actually writes the check, just got screwed out of almost four hundred dollars because someone (I'll use an indefinite here) chose to tell me false plans of: staying with as the fourth roommate, getting a second job to make ends meet, and appealing to his parents to help out. See, this I AM mad about. No only mad; I feel cheated.

If he really had problems with situations at the apartment (which I know he did because he confided in me many times about it), he should have told me he didn't want to stay. And even if the situation to him felt so bad he should need to leave as soon as possible, he still should have told one of us to our faces. His decision has put a lot of pressure on everyone in the apartment. It was irresponsible and dishonest, just like me using livejournal as a confession against the anonymous who are really not that anonymous. Especially when it's not them who will read this, but their friends.

(It's entirely for the purpose of my own self-confession and self-empowering, I wholly admit it)

But I will confront about it. I tried before and I don't think he understood my frustration with him. I'll make it succinct next time.

Yes. Stress and paranoia is a factor in this post. But I feel better having spoken...typed...my mind.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Mon, 24 Mar 2008 21:28:30 GMT

Kevin needs to:

1. Finish the rest of his spring break homework

2. Get applications for a full-time summer job

3. Take a look at apartments in Livermore with Kevin Colorado

4. Ensure that I can fit a work schedule around a Los Positas class or two

I would like to work with small children or perhaps at the Tennis Club. And then I have to get a lease for a place in San Francisco.

Wish me luck.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Fri, 16 Feb 2007 08:01:25 GMT

Yes, Dammit.

Doc Erok

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sun, 11 Feb 2007 01:45:21 GMT

My friend Eric hosts a radioshow. You should all check it out.

His air time is:

Tuesday, 9:00 - 10:00
Friday, 9:00 - 10:00
Saturday, 5:00 - 6:00

Yeah, That's About Right

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Wed, 13 Jul 2005 19:55:28 GMT

You scored as Anarchism. <'Imunimaginative's Deviantart Page'>

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Anarchism

100%

Socialist

67%

Green

67%

Communism

58%

Democrat

50%

Republican

33%

Fascism

Nazi

What Political Party Do Your Beliefs Put You In?
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Sweet. Limbo.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:01:48 GMT

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to the First Level of Hell - Limbo!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	High
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Moderate
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sun, 26 Jun 2005 04:03:39 GMT

"They're living in the tropics. They're well fed. They've got everything they could possibly want."
~ Dicky Cheney to a CNN interviewer on the detainees in Guantanamo Bay

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sat, 25 Jun 2005 21:11:59 GMT

I am so hungry...

Seriously, my grandparent's house does not have enough food to properly nourish a teen-aged boy. My dinner last night came out of a peanut butter jar. There wasn't much in the jar either. I've had a cup of tea today and I'm feeling a little malnourished. My mother is taking me to the store to buy some food for the house soon.

So mostly I've been watching television so far since I have access to IFC and FSTV. I've also been reading but not so much as I forgot to bring interesting books. I think I'll get some homework done while I'm up here as well.

Hey...Pizza for dinner tonight.

I was looking through my CD holder for some music to upload to my grandpa's iTunes library and I discovered a CD that I didn't know I had. It's Into The Labyrinth by Dead Can Dance. I was quite surprised when I found it. It's a pretty good CD despite being called one of their "disappointments." I don't remember buying it but hey, why complain? Seriously though, if it's any of yours, let me know and I'll gladly return it.

OK...food felt good. I just found something to eat and I'm feeling better...

Question Of The Day

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sat, 18 Jun 2005 05:23:46 GMT

Our bodies are composed of completely different molecules than they were a few years ago because of cell regeneration. If our cells regenerate and are constantly turning over and such, then how is it possible for us to retain our memory, personality, and character traits?

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Fri, 17 Jun 2005 04:13:07 GMT

I've decided to adapt to a vegetarian diet. The reasons are mainly health concerned and my distaste for meat which has been present for some time. Don't worry, I'm not going to kill myself. I'm well aware of what I'm doing and I've already done the research into how to implement such a diet without denying your body of protein, iron, calcium, and vitamin B₁₂. Oh, and never fear for I'll never EVER become a militant vegetarian fascist who pushes his beliefs on others. I have no beef
(no pun intended) with anyone who eats meat as long as they don't ridicule my choice.

Now that that's been taken care of, on to other matters...

I really should get started on my History homework. Oi Gevalt! The teacher seems to be a bit uptight. It seems to be a trend amongst honors and AP History teachers at Granada.

I have a birthday present for a certain someone who probably already knows what he's getting.

Hm...I think I'll go and read now. Good night and good health.

Tagged by Sam

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Tue, 14 Jun 2005 19:25:04 GMT

Things you enjoy, not because you have to but because you WANT to, even when no one around you wants to go out and play. What lowers your stress/blood pressure/anxiety level? Make a list, post it to your journal... and then tag 5 friends and ask them to post it to theirs:

(In no particular order)

1.) Listening to good music
2.) Watching good films
3.) Researching on various topics of interest
4.) Exercise
5.) Reading
6.) Philosophy
7.) Learning uncommon knowledge
8.) Sleep
9) Insomnia
10) Good Company
11) Solitude
12) Remembering that when I die my brain will be alive for about six to twelve minutes

I tag...Daniel, Kerry, Aubrey, Kasey, and Rachel. Wow. Good thing there exactly five friends on my friends list that actually update.

It Just Hit Me...It's Summer!

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sat, 11 Jun 2005 16:26:15 GMT

Hello children of all shapes, sizes, and colors. School is out!

Now that the second level of high school indoctrination is over, perhaps I can get back to reading like I used to. Of course I'm definitely free to hang out and contemplate every aspect of whatever with all whomever wishes for me to grace their presence (I kid). However, I'm also going to be weighted down with a bit of Summer homework. Even with Summer homework, I want to make sure I spend time with people. Call me if you ever want me.

449-7020

Today I'm going to Kevin's (Colorado) house to watch movies and meet some of his friends. We might actually make a movie, it being that his he and his friends are big film lovers. Lets see how this goes...

Ricky returned my pants. I had left them in the back of his Expedition after we went shopping yesterday. He came by while I was at Jenny's graduation and threw them into my garage. Good job Ricky and thanks.

HAPPY GRADUATION JENNY! + HAPPY PROMOTION KERRY!

I'm very proud of them both and especially Kerry for winning the Heather Rice Reading Award.

Finals Finals Finals are almost done!

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Wed, 08 Jun 2005 21:00:12 GMT

The Biology and Math finals weren't as hard as I had expected them to be. I'm just glad that they're over as they were quite long and ever so tedious.

I wonder if Xian and Fan are up for shopping tomorrow. They seemed like they were interested in going.

Tomorrow at six is Kerry's promotion. If you want to come to support my sister, give me a call or IM me so we'll know to get you.

The day after tomorrow is Jenny's graduation. We get special seats because my grandma is wheel-chair bound.

Mom: I can't wait to take Grandma to Disney Land so I can use her to jump to the head of the line at the rides.

Kevin: Yeah, that's not senior exploitation...

Mom: Of course not!

I'm not going to fencing tomorrow, obviously, but if you read this Aubrey, be sure to tell Sierra that she'll need to get her own ride there.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Tue, 07 Jun 2005 05:16:13 GMT

"I'm washing the school off my hands..." ~Kristy

I feel strangely content at the moment. I'm not sure why. It just kind of feels right.

It might have been the Chai. Yep, I think it might have been the Chai.

But then again, during Biology I started to daze off and I began to feel like my body was a separate entity from my mind and that I was floating over myself in a transcendent manner. It was really strange and it happened three times during the block and it only lasted for about five seconds each time. Strange things seem to happen during Biology.

OK. I've just been informed that all those times in which I've gone through paralysis while laying down is just a hypnagogic period between sleep and awake and is a step towards lucid dreaming. This should be interesting....

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Thu, 02 Jun 2005 15:00:53 GMT

Jarod called me yesterday and apologized for the way he's been acting lately with his girlfriend (actually, soon to be ex). Now, anyone who doesn't like Jarod because he's a "slacker" or think he's "stupid" or anything like that can seriously toss off. I honestly don't care what you have to say about him. Nobody really knows who he is except for a few people (me included) and the truth is that he's really a sensitive guy who is very in-tuned with his emotions and is much more than he seems. Yes, he does not necessarily realize his true academic abilities (which exist, though he chooses not to exhibit them), but he is smarter than people like to say that he is. In the end, I don't care what any stuck up honors student will say about him and he doesn't care what some burned out loser will say about me. And that's true friendship.

Ricky, Jarod, Kevin, and I are walking out to Japiatos for Mexican Food today. Key word: Walking

I wish Ricky wasn't grounded. A driver would be nice...

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Mon, 30 May 2005 03:13:04 GMT

Wow, Vietnamese food really packs a punch. I had forgotten that. Mom, Kerry and I went out to Pho Hoa out in Pleasanton. It was their first time having Vietnamese food. Needless to say, they didn't enjoy it as much as I did the first time I ever had it (and this time as well). But seriously, once you eat it you feel like going into Rip Van Winkle mode. I slept for over two hours on the couch when I came home (Oh well, so much for running). My muscles feel like they've gone to hell as well. It's probably from sleeping on that couch...

Hey, we don't have to go to school tomorrow. Awesome.

Have you ever noticed...

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Fri, 27 May 2005 04:55:57 GMT

...that our culture is being over burdened with labels? Useless, tactless, labels. They're everywhere these days and there's no escaping it. We apply these labels to almost all aspects of our culture from music to lifestyles and even to concepts such as sexuality which are much better off being defined by action rather than by title. I could go on for a long time about the decline of intellectual civilization because of the rise of the self-righteous asceticism of labels, but for this entry I'll limit myself to the use of labels in terms of music (as this has been subject to some of the most meaningless labels imaginable).

Before I enter the rant, I'm going to give my brief definition of the word "label". To me a label is a term that is applied to a concept that, because it lacks subjectivity and is unable to support a broad variety of subsets, is declared its own stagnant position in a culture. what I mean by "stagnant position" is that this concept is unable to be expanded to create a variety in means of subject and content. For example, "jazz music" is not a label because "jazz" can be interpreted as many varieties of jazz music such as advant, bebop, hard bop, fusion, etc. The term label is also only used to describe a movement or a concept rather than a definite object such as a phone because a phone is already prejudged and cannot be given subjectivity and is generalized on a just base. Now that I've cleared this up, I enter the discussion.

I am quite dissatisfied with the decline in intellectual ability to create meaningful titles to genres and to avoid the unjust classification and generalization of ideas. In the music world, almost all music has subjectivity because new branches can be formed at any time by assimilating, mixing, and juxtaposing musical genres and styles together. However, this entire process is undermined by the action of labeling. Think I'm crazy or just over-analyzing? These actions have been condemned by some of the greats in the history of music. Ian Anderson of Jethro Tull has always firmly rejected the label of his band's album Aqualung as a "concept album." I defend his conviction because just the word, "concept album" is redundant. All albums have a concept. Even if the album is created simply for the accumulation of revenue by an artist for himself, or an artist for his recording company, the concept is still existent as it is for profit. If albums had no concept than B-sides would not exist for there would be no reason to choose one song over another to appear on an album without a set concept for the work.

Another label that really bothers me is one that has lately been thrown around by intelligent people who should know better. This label is "emo." For starters, how can any piece of music that was written from the heart be anything less than emotional? How do you place specific emphasis on the fact that a person happens to be singing about a particularly emotional subject, such as loss or despair, and then classify, congregate, and process this into the neatly-boxed package of "emo?" Even if a certain artists work is deeply emotional, to generalize his artistic struggle into a two syllable word that caters to such low intellect and creativity is a degradation and a strong insult to the artist and his work.

To summarize: Challenge what you hear and take the time to isolate and analyze music before you generalize it because it's always easy to generalize, but it takes much more work to stop and attempt to classify a piece of musical work for what it truly is, rather than what the music industry wants you to believe it is so that you will wear what they want you to, buy what they tell you to and succumb to subcultural pressures. Always remember: the deeper, the better.

Oi Gevalt!

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Thu, 26 May 2005 04:02:08 GMT

Daniel, you strange person. You don't have cancer. Don't stress yourself out.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Wed, 25 May 2005 03:32:44 GMT

Doing homework, reading, and listening to the WTF Show. Who could ask for more in this life?

...stafoo!

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Tue, 24 May 2005 03:21:46 GMT

Has anyone ever noticed that when you eat food of a certain ethnicity (Indian, Mexican, etc) your skin ends up reeking of it? My arm smells like Mexican food. It's usually only the case with heavier foods such as Mexican, Indian, and Vietnamese though.

Just food for thought (no pun intended)

The song title is a coincidence as well...

Regarding Liberalism...

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sun, 22 May 2005 01:10:56 GMT

Just in case certain people who have continued to refer to me as a "liberal" never received the message, I will now briefly explain why I wish to never be called a "liberal":

Courtesy of Wikipedia's article on Liberalism.

"Liberalism is a political current embracing several historical and present-day ideologies that claim defense of individual liberty as the purpose of government."

As a libertarian socialist, my opinions are rooted in the belief that individual liberty is the purpose of the elimination of government. Through non-violent democratic means naturally.

"Since liberalism also focuses on the ability of individuals to structure their own society, it is almost always opposed to totalitarianism, and often to collectivist ideologies, particularly communism."

Contrary to the idea of "individuals structuring their society" as used in today's neoliberal America (which basically insure that the wealthiest few will have a prominent role in the policies of our nation), I believe that individuals should work together in order for them to control their own society, free of oligarchical rule of the privileged.

"Liberals also typically believe in a free market and free trade"

I'm a socialist. Therefore my opinions are firmly rooted in anti-capitalism and
anti-oligarchical rule.

I hope that clarifies a few things.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Sat, 21 May 2005 04:54:19 GMT

Aubrey can't seem to find time to hang out with one of her best friends (I wonder if I even hold that title to her now).

Theresa and Kasey don't talk to me anymore. Even when I try to do most of the talking.

Daniel apparently talks about me behind my back then lies about it.

Jarod only wants to spend time with his drinking buddies these days.

Am I really losing all my friends?

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Fri, 20 May 2005 04:21:05 GMT

Star Wars Episode III: Revenge of the Sith is an awesome movie. I highly recommend it to anyone.

Farmer's Market started up again today.

Kevinosity@Gmail.com — Thu, 19 May 2005 23:54:23 GMT

Today is Malcolm X's birthday. Many of my new sites have had articles commemorating his life. Ironically, I had rented Spike Lee's Malcolm X yesterday from Blockbuster without knowing that his birthday was the next day.

Democracy Now! has two good articles on X

I get to watch Supersize Me tomorrow during Bio. I won't have anything to feel guilty about, since I don't eat fast food. Especially a corrupt one such as McDonald's.